We are Children of the Scar

“We are children of the scar.”

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Recovery is a scar. It is from our scars. And it is about how we try to cover, deny and fight our scars. And it is hard… recovery creates it’s own type of scars.

Seeing inside can transfix. But it can be the fix that we need to outlive the fix that could never, never fix.

This scar is a scar that heals. But as it heals, it reveals. A scar that is slowly removed and in time we see more of ourselves. Infant rays at first… little bits, showing through like broken bottle shards full of sparks. With time we see inside, past shadows that once tormented.

Seeing inside can transfix. But it can be the fix that we need to outlive the fix that could never, never fix. Getting fix after fix burns with hot white searing. Scars from burns mark us. But scars can become tracks leading to a better way.

Our bodies talk, but paying attention is not easy.

Being a child of the scar, we know that behind scars, within scars is pain. Some days, still we still feel it. Scars break into our minds, thoughts, memories. Pain and scar feel alive again, even for a moment.

Seeing our scars and the shards and who we are takes willingness. Wanting to see or liking what we see is not a requirement for scars to becomemore.

We are more than our scars.

Every time we sit with our scars, rather than pick or run away into our next fix or hurry to fix, we become… a little bigger… a little more alive… a little more real.

We are more than our scars.

At one time, scars were anchors. Anchors pulling and anchors tearing and anchors ramming into bottom of earth, shattering heart and soul. But the anchor that once held back now holds us so that we can hold fast.

At one time, scars were anchors. Anchors pulling and anchors tearing and anchors ramming into bottom of earth, shattering heart and soul. But anchor has become, and we too have become. The anchor that once held back now holds us so that we can hold fast.

We are more than our scars.

Recovery is from our scars. It is learning to see ourselves through scars. It is seeing that scars have made us.

You are more than your scars.

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If you like this post, I invite you to check out some of my other writing:

Your Healing Will Leave Scars

To Heal, You Must Become the Art

The Not So Subtle Art of Having a Nasty Day

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Photo by Giuseppe Milo


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