Whatever creates distance from living can become an addiction. I have found that even healthy practices can make me feel less real, less alive… Our practice of yoga, exercise, suntanning, shopping, social media, enjoying a social drink or writing this blog can each be a healthy behavior or a way to avoid.
Even meditation, attentiveness or focusing on our breath can be used to prevent us from what we need to be doing, or feeling, or sensing at this moment.
You will discover whether you are creating distance from life, rather than creating a life for yourself by answering one question: “Can I look intently at my fears and my longings – without turning away?”
Take a moment to consider your answers to two questions:
- What do I fear?
- What do I want?
Chances are, your answers to these questions are mirror images of each other: What you fear is usually connected to what you want.
- You fear rejection; What you want is acceptance.
- You fear disappointment; What you want is to live a life that is valued – by you and by those you care about.
- You fear change; What you want is to learn to be more flexible in the face of change, progress or what you cannot control.
- You fear intimacy, you wonder if you can do what it takes to make your relationships work; You want to be and to feel well, you want relationships that are healthy.
- You fear that you will continue to be ill, that you may continue to be overwhelmed with a mental illness, that you may again succumb to your addiction; You want to be well, and to learn to stay well.
- You fear being alone; You desire that someone will truly know you and accept you.
Are you creating a life, or are you creating distance from life? Are you moving toward what you want, or are you living out of fear, hemmed in by anxiety or a belief that you are unworthy or unable to live the life that you want?
Addiction is inventing chaos when we are insecure, uncertain or afraid. It is a defense mechanism that helps us avoid… Recovering health is not easy, but it is usually simple. If it is complicated, it won’t get done.
When we continue with behaviors that prevent us from living, from life – we end up feeding our fear and undermining our own choices to make a life that is worthwhile.
In pursuing peace, we may unwittingly create a war.
The pursuit of peace is unhealthy when we use it as a way to avoid: pain, emotion, intimacy, difficult conversations, being in the moment, accepting our past, being open to life, accepting what we cannot change about ourselves/people we care about/or situations we find ourselves in.
Whatever creates distance from living can become an addiction.
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